Wow - it's been over a month since my last post. My life has been so full of ups and downs, expected and unexpected events, tears, laughter, and general awe of people, that it feels like the month of July must have had at least a hundred days in it.
Got myself a job - yay me :).
Papers are signed, sealed, and about to be delivered. Again - yay me.
There's still a lion, still a snake, no more hamster... what animal could I use for the doctor-to-be? I'm thinking the puppy. Yep, now he's named so let's move it on.
July was hot - for more than one reason. Somehow I started taking on a role, then when I looked in the mirror I had to ask myself - is this what I am evolving into or is this what I'm settling for? Had to step back, remind myself about my "fuck the rules - I'll make my own damn rules, thank you very much" ways. May not manifest in everything I do - its pretty ingrained in there to not be "trouble" - but there are times, especially this past month, when I've earned my two new nicknames...
My girl E - the fairy with the two little girls - she helped me create and name my new persona - "Corn Bread". Two words people. Mainly its the downhome, comfy, makes you want to put your feet up, just sweet enough, no Southern meal should be without it, kind of person I am sometimes. Plus - who wants their cornbread anyway but thick? Lol...
The other one... its the one that gets whispered to me. When I walk (sashay with a bounce and a twist really) anywhere on my heels, when I'm pumping gas at the station next to a fine-ass man, when I'm rocking down the grocery aisle with my iPod on, looking at the wine, making eyes at the bagboy. Trouble. Ain't no good, didn't see it coming, gonna need some therapy and maybe an hour in a confessional kind of Trouble. Capital T. That one... it reminds me of why the boys called me Hollywood in high school. That feeling I've always had that there's a reason grown men still talk about that "church girl" from back in the day. I think its hilarious, empowering, makes me feel like a damn sexual Amazon...
Which is a fairly big statement considering how very pocket-sized I am in real-life, at least height-wise.
So, there's lots of changes happening in my life. Hey, you never know, next week I might be locked down, somebody might decide they liked it so they're gonna put a ring on it (wink)...
Yeah...no. I've got some fun to have before THAT happens. I'm 28. I'm "fairly" single. I'm open-minded, adventurous, and have great bad habits. I've got soul in my walk, in my hips, and in the kitchen. I have a heart that is wide-all-the-way open, and if you're lucky - very lucky - I just might let you hold onto it.
This is me. New and improved...and sure as hell not simple.
Love you!!!
- Asha
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